Scrubs+Emotions+Alcohol

I haven't written in a few days due to the tumultous happenings in my damn life. I'm not going to go into detal even though I promised myself that this blog would be brutally honest in the very beginning. But this is just in case any of my friends were to find my blog and blab. I will however say that hospitals are full of shit. They have you waiting 6 hours just to say, "It's a bad panic attack, we can give you something if you want to calm you down?" It's like "I already had the panic attack HOURS AGO!!!" I finally picked up my scrubs for school and I'm nervous as hell to start Wednesday. Oh, and while in the hospital I was entertained by a glove blown up with a piggie face. I also tied knots on the fingers to make it look like the piggie had nappy roots. Eric hasn't talked to me in 3 days and it feels like longer. When we talk now it's always for under 5 minutes and it's mainly me talking a million miles a minute and him just saying "Uh huh". I wish I knew what was going on here because I'm not sure if he still wants me going over for Thanksgiving. Relationships are hard when it's long distance and as much as I'd like to break up with him sometimes due to the lack of love on my end I realize that he's worth it. Or as my brother likes to say, "The juice is worth the squeeze". I don't know what to really write right now. My mind is all over the place and I just wish Eric would pay some attention to me already. I just don't get it. He says if I was to visit he would make the time for me but it's like why wont he do it PERIOD? If i could understand men I would be so much happier for once. Could this also mean that I could blame my drinking many a margarita on my running from my problems in my relationshp. Is my unhappiness leading me to become a drunk like Tony Stark?!?!? If so I'm hoping I at least get over it soon. Drinks wont make things better, neither will copious ammounts of Ambien at bed-time. Plus, if I mix the two together that's a probelm with DISASTER written all over it. I hope all this just gets fixed soon :/ But what would this blog be like without my fun fact at the very end?!?! Stay Fresh :] Fun Fact: The king of hearts is the only king without a mustache.