Doubts

Sometimes I really doubt myself. Today is no exception to say the least. I'm letting what my best friend says get in my head and it's not good. She doesn't think my boyfriend does enough for me and now I'm starting to think she may be right. But I know she's not, everyone shows their affection differently. He just tends to show it when I'm physically there and I show it when I'm there with him and when I'm back in the hell i live in for the next 9 months. I love him to death there is no doubt in my mind of that, but why should I let stupid thoughts plague me? So what if he doesn't send me flowers or cards. Not every guy does that and it costs money. He shows he cares with the little things he does, and they add up quickly. I think I just miss him so much at this point that I'm feeling like crap. I fell in love quicker than I ever thought I would. I mean REALLY fell in love. I have pictures of us on my wall and when I look at them it's a bitter/sweet thing. Hopefully I feel better, I hate feeling like poop.

Fun Fact: 90% of New York City cab drivers are recently arrived immigrants.